i havent blogged in a very long time....... so this is a catch up

i have become a contradiction,
i speak but rarely listen,
i want to be seen but shy from contact,
i want love and companionship but constantly pushing people away,
i will stand for everything but whats most important,
i love my job but currently working toward self-sabotage,
i want to be in the front leading but want to work behind the scenes,
i have evolved by devolving,

I have finally realized and accepted that i am not who i was nor who i will be, i will constantly change, evolve, construct/deconstruct, the things that are thought to be Me.


that pretty much sums up me right now. No Where and Everywhere