today you sat before me and bared your soul. not expecting such honesty i was taken back for a second, but when i looked up your beauty blinded everyone around.

the light that you produced was like the sun dipped in black. passerbys found themselves unable to turn away from this amazing display, while i found myself being drawn in deeper. at one point all i could think of was to reach out and grab you. i felt the desire to tell you of the beauty that everyone sees but you. but every attempt was rejected by you.....

you standing here with you soul beared and still you can not see your own beauty, nor feel the warmth that you give others.
i sought out advise to see if maybe someone else would be able to help.

i was told that you can tell a bird it can fly, but the bird will not understand until it has taken wing and is soaring in the heavens.

new found joy
i have a new found joy..........conversation
silly isnt it, something so common, so casual. it had always been something that would happen in passing before. see someone chat about this and that, maybe it would go futher and end up making me think. but until recently they never started as an exchange of ideas.
i now look forward to coffee and deep conversations. its a pause in the downward spiral that ive been on.