at one time i was working on becoming open,
now dont get me wrong i would tell anyone who would listen what i thought about a particular idea, thought, concept, political ideology, hell almost anything as long as it didnt involve me.
during the summer, i made the conscious decision to be open
open with my feelings,
open with allowing other people in,
i had just come out of a relationship and i wanted to do things differently
but once i took that step
i couldnt go back
so i end up pouring my hear out,
telling her how i feel, what i want, thoughts, dreams
the whole 9 yards
only to hear that shes not sure what she wants
so here i am with everything out there
to only find out that im the only one willing to place everything on the line
will i do it again?
dont know
i know that that was one of the most painful experiences ive ever been through
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